Chileli died quite some time back. Though it really took me some weeks to come to terms with the fact that no matter how much water I give, the 101 varied positions I tried to place it so that it will get the most sun, it will still not grow. Cos its dead. *mourns* How could it possibly die when it was sprouting so beautifully the first time? I guess, this young life must have battled to survive but in the end still lost out to that incredulous amount of soil my mum drowned it with. Come to think of it, its just soil. How come it din survive?
Anyway, I decided to try again. "THIS CAN"T BE IT". I went to my fridge, cut open another chilli padi and drop the seed into the same soil again. I waited and waited...nearly disappointed as I shared with Esther yesterday cos it was still not sprouting. But today, I saw a tiny, winy green sprout. It takes good eyes to discover I guess. *grins* haa Cos its so small. It was bended with its leaves cuddling together, trying to emerge out of that thick layer of soil. HEAR ME SHOUT ---> GROWTH! WOooo HOO!. Happy. Will show you Chileli Junior when it gets a little more visible to my nearly breakdown Sony Ericcson 3.2 Megapixel Phone and of course not to mention my Canon, should-soon-be-sent-for-repair Ixus 6.0 too. Haha.
Was just sharing with Esther yesterday that when I looked at my Chileli Jr who was not growing, I can't help but to feel a little disappointed cos I really put in effort to care and look after it. I water, talk to it, change it's position and checked to see if the draining holes were good enough. Apparently these daily efforts din seem to reap much results. As a gardener myself, I can't help but to relate to how God must have felt when some of us don't grow though the environment seemed so right. How He would have felt when some of us growing ones died when just some "soil" piled on us. Like how I feel for Chileli? How does God work through disappointments?
Anyway, I decided to try again. "THIS CAN"T BE IT". I went to my fridge, cut open another chilli padi and drop the seed into the same soil again. I waited and waited...nearly disappointed as I shared with Esther yesterday cos it was still not sprouting. But today, I saw a tiny, winy green sprout. It takes good eyes to discover I guess. *grins* haa Cos its so small. It was bended with its leaves cuddling together, trying to emerge out of that thick layer of soil. HEAR ME SHOUT ---> GROWTH! WOooo HOO!. Happy. Will show you Chileli Junior when it gets a little more visible to my nearly breakdown Sony Ericcson 3.2 Megapixel Phone and of course not to mention my Canon, should-soon-be-sent-for-repair Ixus 6.0 too. Haha.
Was just sharing with Esther yesterday that when I looked at my Chileli Jr who was not growing, I can't help but to feel a little disappointed cos I really put in effort to care and look after it. I water, talk to it, change it's position and checked to see if the draining holes were good enough. Apparently these daily efforts din seem to reap much results. As a gardener myself, I can't help but to relate to how God must have felt when some of us don't grow though the environment seemed so right. How He would have felt when some of us growing ones died when just some "soil" piled on us. Like how I feel for Chileli? How does God work through disappointments?
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