I don't know about tomorrow. Do you?

Last Sunday, I visited Grace AOG (Perth) and I missed R-age so much. :( Pastor Cara preached on the story of Nathanael from John 1:45-51. What truly blessed my heart during this service was the strong presence of GOd and what Pastor Cara shared a little about her testimony regarding her full time calling. She mentioned that she was called when she was a teenager but only became a Pastor in her 40s, there were 22 years of silence.

I felt the call of God when I was 21 to go into full time. However, the Lord did not specify the "what" and "how" and "when". For the past few years, I started struggling about whether what I heard was really true and I kept asking God to confirm that call. As i looked back, i do see the Lord affirming me be it through my prayer life, people, vision etc. Come to think of it then what is my problem? Hmm...

One of the things that the Lord had affirmed me was through Psalm 139.
Psalm 139

One of the days when I was doing my Quiet Time, I read Psalm 139. As I meditated on the scriptures what really hit my heart was "God knows it all"; He knows me and He knows my tomorrow and my future. He knows what I do not know. As I still before the Lord, the Lord began to speak with me the cause of my constant questioning regarding my calling was my fear of uncertainties and my fear of giving my control wholly to God. Then this song came to my mind:

I Know Who Holds Tomorrow Lyrics
- Alison Krauss

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.

I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.

Its a beautiful song as I relooked and sang to it again. I thank God that He is all knowing and nothing escapes His eyes and hands.

During the communion on Sunday, Pastor Cara read a portion of the scripture before we took the bread and the cup. Guess what? It was Psalm 139 again. Thank God for His constant reminders. :)