Monday came and I got to talk to my little one again. Asked him if he still seriously wanted me dead. Silence. Upon the 3rd repeat, he finally answered with a 'no'.
soowei: So, do you hate me?
Little one: *silence*
soowei: I'll give you some time, tell me when you are ready.
Little one: mmmHmmm er... no
Soowei: Do you know the meaning of 'hate'?
Little one: Bu4 xi3 Huan1
Soowei: Yea, you nearly got that right. However 'hate' is really a very strong word. Some times when we hate people, we really wanted them dead. But that is very mean. What have I done wrong that you would hate me and want me to die? Discipling you? Do you not like everything that I did or only at times when I discipline you?
Little one: Discipline.
Soowei: So, a better word would be 'dislike'. You could say "Miss Sim, I dislike it when you discipline me, I feel angry, or even sad..." What do you have to say now?
Little one: Sorry, Miss Sim.
soowei: Its ok. But I was hurt when I saw the note last Friday. If I don't discipline you it means....
Little one: (interrupts) you don't care.
Soowei: Yes. You are right.
Little one gave me sweet smile. I had so many questions on my mind... So many other things to teach him.... so many things to say.... shall wait til next monday.